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[190] (Update) Pain or Suffering – Mike, you choose

Probably one of the most crucial statement that I should constantly remind myself of what I am doing to myself daily. – And to start self-reflecting

pain is a good thing, physically (self preservation mechanism)
suffering is something that you do to your mind.

pain is something you do to the body
suffering is something to the mind

multiply x1000 times, million times depending on how capable you are.
and suffer a million times over.

right now most human beings are like this.
what happened 10 years ago, they can still suffer.

they are not suffering life, yet they think they are suffering life.
they are suffering the two most fantastic faculties.

a vivid sense of memory and,
a fantastic sense of imagination

Now back to present.

Put that to my mental/physical struggles.
For Example, imagine if I let go, go online shop all the stuffs I need and move on.

Wouldn’t that just strike off one suffering, and I can move on to the next thing?
Wouldn’t clearing the list of suffering eases, helps ease the mental state of mine?

Think about it, Mike. No need to react now.

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[120] Let these 2 topics be a reminder everyday

The Disciplined Pursuit of Less

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“If you don’t prioritize your life, someone else will.”

Is [this food] healthy?


All food is healthy. That’s why it’s called food. Any food can be part of a healthy diet.

Not all diets are healthy. What you eat today doesn’t matter. What you eat this month does. A healthy diet is one with a wide variety of foods, mostly plants, not too much or too little.

The truth is that no food is healthy. That’s because people can be healthy, but food can only be nutritious.

Want to actually eat healthy? Relax and enjoy your food. Stressing about diet is itself a health risk. Obsessing over food can lead to life-threatening eating disorders.

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[109] A solemn reminder to self

If the mountain seems too big today

then climb a hill instead

If the morning brings you sadness

it’s ok to stay in bed

If the day ahead weighs heavy 

and your plans feel like a curse

there’s no shame in rearranging

don’t make yourself feel worse

If a shower stings like needles

and a bath feels like you’ll drown

if you haven’t washed your hair for days

don’t throw away your crown

A day is not a lifetime

A rest is not defeat

Don’t think of it as failure

just a quiet, kind retreat

It’s ok to take a moment

from an anxious, fractured mind

The world will not stop turning

while you get realigned

The mountain will still be there

when you want to try again

You can climb it in your own time

just love yourself til then

Obtained from https://www.7cups.com/forum/AnxietySupport_53/DailyCheckinThreads_955/IsawthisandloveitAgreatreminderthatitsokay_195486/

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[255] Dragon Quest Builders 2


  • Trying to understand my intent of gaming
  • Worse off, what do i want to gain out of it
    • Pleasure?
    • Fun?
    • Time-Wasting?
    • Learn Something?
    • Benefit Something?
  • Anyways, alittle bit of “fun” and something separate from the usual farming simulators
  • Some controls are a little clunky, but i’m happy that it at least tried to offer both FPS and 3rd person view – at least there were some better precise control when you need it
  • Item and Tool management i think can be much more better
  • Thankful for the teleportation/wrap feature, since dont really feel much for walking now…
  • Enemy/Fighting engagement in this game is not the true focus i feel, so just let your’ buddy/buddies help you

PS : I’m still kinda pondering about all these games… Perhaps i should really leave.

life, review

[254] Far Cry New Dawn

Impressive graphics until I almost have to tone down the settings…


  • Well, kinda much of mechanics and crafting if you’re into these types of games
  • Inclusive of FPS
  • But I felt very irritated with the enemy AI’s – kinda difficult to aim and get “cover” to retaliate back
    • Does not feel as a causal gameplay like Call of Duty series
  • Personal – Messy world, Confusing war when engaging situations, not sure which is friend, foe, and trying to pickup supplies
  • Even controls feels very clunky to handle and manage

PS : Perhaps I need to really quit FPS for good. Maybe even gaming as a whole…

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[253] Transport Fever 2

“Clean” feeling, as compared to other simulators. But I felt abit overwhelmed with the words


  • The menus are clean and straight forward
  • The initial guide will flow you though without leaving you behind, though the AI speaker may make you wait awhile (if you are the sort that likes to listen to all)
  • Audio sounded ok and pleasant, though i had to lower volume
  • Did not expect to see push carts, horses in the game???
  • Perhaps I missed something out, possibly there is some sort of evolution or something going on
  • Controls, Management of the ground feels bit of a chunkier side, but I believe its more of a preference kind of thing
  • Playable, but not for me now, my mind needs something alittle bit more engaging
    • Might revisit later again

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[252] FTL – Faster Than Light

Finally I had the chance to play


  • Always wanted to try it, saw quite a number of gameplays and thought I would be interested and love the game
  • Somehow I havent even started a “new game”
  • Only tried tutorial
    • Somehow didn’t felt any connection to the game
    • Its like just another simulator
    • Spaceship management, Weapon control, Asset management
    • Earn “Energy” to travel, upgrades, etc.

PS : Many thanks to EPIC Games for giving this game away during Christmas 2019. Otherwise I probably won’t have the chance to even try it.

life, log, review

[251] Lost Ember

Very Scenic

Thoughts of mine

  • Indeed “stress” relief game I feel
  • But I don’t think it is the type of stress relief that is suitable for me
    • Appears that anything 3D or motion seems to trigger symptoms on myself
    • Either headache, nausea or whatever
  • Music was very nice
  • Quite a linear game, if you are willing to slow down and take your time to explore
  • If you’re a “perfectionist” mentality like me, who needs to scout all corners of the map…
    • Well you find hidden stuffs around the map
    • But I am not sure if it is mandatory or not
  • Exploration wise, you have the freedom to roam around (Certain conditions may need certain animals, but the game will aid you), choose any animal to “take over” and enjoy the scenery

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[250] 10 Things That Are Secretly Making You Unhappy – I've checked them all…

Someone summarised it. Guess what, I checked them all. This sucks…

  1. You’re extremely goal oriented.
  2. You value possessions over experiences.
  3. You’re holding a grudge.
  4. You spend a lot of time in the past.
  5. You’re overly frugal with your money.
  6. You’re not contributing.
  7. You avoid your problems.
  8. You allow distractions to guide your day.
  9. You deflect complements.
  10. You’re taking life too seriously.

PS : Not in affiliation with Psych2Go. Just sharing what I read online

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[249] Control (Game)

Something is wrong with me…

I dunno why am I pushing, forcing myself to keep “gaming” as a numbing, distraction tool.

Nevertheless, I still pushed and tried it out. I will say almost every session, my anxiety and fear keep pushing up.

Control (Game) – Thoughts

  • Flash’es/Flashy (shooting) gameplay
    • Note : Epilepsy warning is already given prior start of game
  • Repetitive
    • To-Dos
    • Travelling to “do”, “collect” something
    • Reading/Viewing/Listening to Collectibles
  • Very irritating loading times (despite using SSD)
  • Restarting at last save point after “death”
    • Worse off, is the loading time
  • Some areas are slightly “puzzled” and refreshing, yet traumatising to figure them out at certain parts of gameplay (i.e. enemies within area, tremendous amount of travelling, or waiting for loading…)
  • Confusing side quests, which does not sync up with main storyline timing well